If my mom can't find a job that pays so much money by December we'll be forced to sell our house! Apparently even if I give her the money to pay off the loan she still needs to have a job and we'll still have to sell...it's BULL!!! Earlier today I was so angry and depressed I wanted to drive a knife through my arm...This is exactly why I don't believe in karma, we haven't done shit to deserve this...my father took from my mother and we've struggled ever since. And my father and his girlfriend can own a van and a truck and afford to remodel their kitchen and buy a mini jacuzzi. I don't care if we pay in the after life, why the fuck should we have to suffer in life to have a nice after life? I just can't stand this, it's cruel and twisted and I hate it.